Who Watches The Watchmen?

What exactly is it I long for? I can't even answer that. I am beginning to think that my "goals" are pointless and dumb. Mostly because they are....I don't even know exactly where i stand on somethings anymore. Confusion at best. I'm tired of many things that I shall never overcome.....it's only a matter of dealing with them.  Life = Hardships. That is one thing that I am certain. I miss simplicity. I wish I had the mind of a child again. Things were so much more condensed into an easier way of thinking. I want that back. I over-complicate and over-dramatize things. I'm good at messing things up.....

It's 10:16 and besides laying in my bed.....I've done nothing but think since I've been home. I need acceptance.....from someone....I mean God always accepts but I need a fellow being on the same aspect to accept me. Because I obviously can't. Neither can most. I'm just not good enough. For most decent things and most decent people. But how i wish i were. I may not be satisfied with myself but that gives me the drive to strive and become better for this world.

I am in great need of a supporting partner...i can't make it alone. I think i need a female strong in Christ and one willing to be moralistic and godly. No more worldly women.

Although the last bit isn't necessary...It's something I wish to have.

My ankle is in great pain....I need Aleve/Tylenol...be right back.....okay....maybe it'll feel better soon.

I've done quite a bit of song-writing today. but nothing too great.  Just simple chords with self-inspired and expressive lyrics. I hate being a teenager. All themes are so very related everytime. I feel like a stereotypical 17 year-old for the large majority of the time.

I may be tired but far from sleepy. I think I may sit back, rock some tunes, and kick it until i ultimately crash and catch some Z's.

Goodnight.
Love,
TG