Summer Of 2012: A Drop In The Ocean

Before any of you tagged in my post read this…go play some sad music so it will have more effect of emotion on you. I’ve realized this about halfway through typing this and listening to sad songs simultaneously so I had to add this in. lol.

So…yet again…. I haven’t posted in a while so I guess I should catch you up on things. Summer of 2012 is about to become a closed chapter on my life…but it includes so many memories that I will never forget. Like the many late nights spent with my friends, or the countless jam sessions full of adrenaline and excitement, or meeting the girl that just might change my entire perspective on life and all of the wonders it holds.

Do you ever relive a specific, significant memory in your mind and chills shoot throughout your body? It’s such a feeling of pure perfection. As I reminisce in the wonder of yesterday and type my story out, I’m reminded of all the fantastic experiences I’ve enjoyed most recently. It has been a beautiful journey that I couldn’t possibly soon forget.

This summer has been wild with emotion and events. I’ve established a special bond with a few individuals that I cherish more than most anything. I’m now proud to be included in a fellowship of bestfriends that we call the “Decembros”. The Decembros are a club of people who are all born in December. These people share similar hobbies and ideas with myself. The genuine bond feels to be the most natural thing in the world. Truth be told, I love those guys more than life itself. Sounds Cliché but I sincerely mean it. Thanks guys, for an amazing summer and the awesome friendships you all share with me.

To Chris, 

Man it has been a summer of wonder for us, hasn’t it? We have put our talent to the test and created some of the greatest songs I could ever thought possible by our creativity. Man that one song is gonna be HUGE one day. Remember that amazing feeling we shared as soon as that last chord was strummed simultaneously with the last strike of the snare and we both looked each other  with such excitement? Man, the look on our faces had to be the most priceless memory I’ve ever had in music. We just stared and kept repeating how awesome it was. We had to resemble two children that just found a hundred dollar bill lying on the ground. I’m so proud of how far we’ve come through both our music and our relationship. Our bond is the most amazing thing in the world to me. I’d give the world to ensure that we never lose it. Thanks, brother. You are the best friend I have ever known.

To Kyle,

It’s been quite a summer for the both of us too. Before this summer, you and I hadn’t really hung out much. I’m glad that has changed, cause you are rapidly becoming a really good friend that I admire quite dearly. We have had some fun nights recently. Double-dates, parties, anime marathons, and just conversing over the phone. I’m glad to have built a bond within you too, man. Thanks for also being in my life. You’ve become such an awesome bestfriend as well. 

To Chris Lulfs,

Bro, You’ve been through quite a lot lately. It isn’t fair. You don’t deserve all this crap you’ve been put through. But ALWAYS remember that Me and the rest of the guys will forever be here for you, man. Before recently, it has been a while since we’ve hung out and I’m glad to have caught up with you and be subjected to your amazingness. It’s a good feeling to have you around more often cause I forgot how awesome it was to hang out with you. Thanks for everything, bestfriend.

To Randy,

Well, man…I’ve learned a lot about you this summer. All those early-morning/late-night talks at McDonalds have taught how beautiful of a person you are. Dude, I know it seems like she’ll never come…but one day some girl is gonna realize how beautiful you are (like I do) and she will learn to love you as much as I do and maybe even more. Randy, you might just be the nicest, most kind-hearted person I know. I’m always gonna be here for advice and for whatever you need, man. I’m extremely proud to call you my bestfriend.

To DJ,

I didn’t know you at all until this summer. Man, I was MISSING OUT! You’re such an awesome guy that’s had to deal with so much crap throughout life. You are truly a beautiful person. You are always happy and always have a smile on your face when I see you. My favorite memories with you would HAVE to be our conversations at the premiere of TDKR. Gah, it makes me crack up thinking about all of Thad references and inside jokes. You’re hilarious. I hope in the future we’ll bond and share more and more. I know you are truly a fantastic person. And though it seems like we just met, you are my bestfriend.

To Dustin, 

Gah, what can I say? Every time we hang out I always have an amazing time. I think it’s cause we get each other so easily. Still the Protest The Hero concert was my favorite memory we’ve shared. That was such an awesome night. You’re such an amazing person inside and out and I really wished I could see you more often cause I don’t to hang with you much.But thanks for all the memories and all the time you’ve spent being a part of my life as a bestfriend.

TIME OUT!!!!!!!!!! WE NEED TO TAKE A SECOND AND PARTY BREAK! HANDS UPPPPPPPP! 

WOOO!

WOOO!

Alright back to reminiscing………

To Bryan,

We just graduated two months ago, and we’re ready to hit the world. So let’s go out and show the world our potential. I’ve had an awesome summer spent with you too, brother. From Lake Weenie to the nights of hide in seek in your house to just talking about things. We’ve been bestfriends for such a long time now. We’ve grown up a lot since those weekly trips to Piedmont and multiple-hour long phone calls every other night. Even the Captain would care about our friendship. It has increased quite significantly. Even though Alexis gets to see you way more than I do….I still love the times we hang out. The trip to Chattanooga was awesome. I’ll never forget the memories shared with my bestfriend.

 

To Craig, 

Again, what an eventful summer between us, man. We’ve had fun times flipping the dirt bike and chilling around the house.  And the memories we’ve created at Lake Weenie like “Captain GAF” and The Coin Trick. I haven’t hung out with you must this summer. But the times I have were pretty awesome. I’m so happy that you have been a part of my life for these last few years in the drumline and as a friend. As a Bestfriend.

To Anthony, 

To be honest, I think we’ve only seen each other like twice while the summer has passed. I’m ashamed of that. But the day at the lake was quite a bit of fun. We’ve been through quite a bit together also. Especially on the drumline. And it really sucks that you’ve quit, both you and Craig, cause you guys gave so much to the line. You both worked so hard and you guys helped me achieve such happiness as my senior year of playing tenors ended. I still have a text saved on my phone from you when you showed your appreciation of me being your drum captain/section leader. It was an awesome season. We need to hangout again soon cause I miss you, man. Your pretty good at being my bestfriend.

To Skye, 

Wow, you’re such a pansy. But somehow you’ve become a big part of my summer too. Thanks for taking my side as you always do. It’s a good thing. We’ve had quite a time at the get-togethers, trip to the waterpark, and the rock village.  Many among many jokes we’ve shared and conversations about particular topics. I’m sorry that some things don’t work out for you sometimes. But keep pushing and keep persevering…good things WILL come for you, chick. You’re an interesting person to say the least. Crazy for sure. And you’re a ginger too. Life has to be pretty awesome for you sometimes. Hahahhaha. You’re a pretty chill girl and you make a good bestfriend to Hunter AND to me.

To Daniel, 

My biological brother. A title that only you, out of the ENTIRE world, hold. You’re pretty blessed to have me in your life, if you ask me. But Dude, do we have some awesome times? Lol. I feel that you are heavily influenced by me. You like everything I like which makes you one of the easiest people in the world to talk to. I thank God for that. We can always have a good time when we are together. Give us a computer and we’ll have the time of our lives by watching tons of videos and making inside jokes that no one could possibly understand but us. Man, I’m really lucky to wake up at home and have someone who I can share anything in the world with. I love you soooo much, dear brother. We have many arguments but we’re still probably the bestfriends on the earth.

Now for a different spin on things….

To Hunter,

I completely underestimated you before this summer that we’ve spent together. We have shared quite a bit now…and though it was unexpected you have become such an amazing part of my life. You have really grown on me. You’ve become something more than just mere significance. You are amazing. And I’m learning more and more about how amazing you are with each minute spent with you both on the phone and face-to-face. And boy, do we talkkkkkkkkkkkk on the phoneeeeeeeeeeeeee. Like Alllllllllll the timeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. But im glad we do…cause it led me to realize how special you are to me and how I have come to like you sooo very much. You’re beautiful, you’re intelligent, you’re funny, you’re cute, you’re wonderful. You’re IDEAL. Perfect match? Maybe not… but definitely a potential cute couple. I don’t think you’ve yet realized how I truly feel about you….nor have I. but it’s a learning experience. Hunter Danielle, you are one of the most amazing girls I’ve ever had the opportunity to get to know. I would’ve never guessed in a million years that we’d be talking today. But surprises come so unexpectedly. You have found a way into my mind…and frankly I cant get you out. Cliché again…but still true. You motivate me to be more. Maybe it’s just because I find you so amazing….that I wanna match you. But anyways…you have something on your face!!!! Oh wait, that’s right…it’s CUTE! (; Thank you for all that you are and all that you do for me. Even though you’re the craziest form of crazy In all the universe…you’re still my bestfriend.

So that’s my memories with you guys and I would never change any of them.  Thanks so much guys for being a part of my life. But mostly……..Thank you all for being my bestfriends.

Well, that chapter has ended and a new one begins…A new chapter that I hope all of you are part of. As I begin my fall semester at Jacksonville State I ponder what I’m going to be doing in 5 years with my degree…and I realize it really doesn’t matter as long as you are all a part of my future. I love you guys. 

So Now I sit her thinking about all that I’ve just typed…and all I can think of is how amazing my God is. He has blessed me so much with each and everyone of my bestfriends and the opportunities I’ve been given.  Life is beautiful, always remember that. God loves you all and is the key to the life I lead. I’m glad to be a part of all your lives and I can’t neglect him and forget that without God none of this would be possible for me. I love you all as does he.

In My Heart, I Can't Contain It

Guess what?! That's right... I had a wonderful day full of wonder. (;

Despite my sickness, today was great. I had time to reflect and write and study and even talk with my heavenly father. God gives me numerous blessings that seem almost infinite. Speaking of infinite....His love is infinite and today was one of those day in which I felt it running through my veins. However  it wasn't necessarily an eventful day, it was just a day I felt was needed.

I just gotta say that each and every day can be a good day if you start it out right. This morning while in the shower I told myelf to make the best of the day and began shortly after a prayer to ask God to be with me. And the day worked out great. When you have God on your side nothing can bring you down or discourage you. Leave your faith in him and he will do great things.

Tomorrow will be pretty awesome. Going to go Jam with Chris after school. We need to hang out more. I miss him all the time.

The seniors received our camps and gowns today. That came as a wake-up call to me. It's almost time to graduate and be finished with highschool...it'll be off to college for alot of us and new opportunities will arise for us all. It will be different not seeing all of my friends from CCHS everyday, but to be honest i'm excited to get to JSU and meet new people. God will be with me every step of the way and I'm quite thankful for that.

Sorry this post is so short...but it's already 11:43 and I'm really tired. Goodnight and God bless you all(:

From Bulwark to Bane

                                                                                      Oh my dear blog....how i've neglected you. I'm back so it's gonna be alright. i know i've promised this several times.... but... i will try to post more often....

So this life of Tyler James Garrett has been a river raging, turning, winding, tumbling through many trials and tribulations. Since My last post in January I've changed much more. I look back and wish i still possessed the wisdom i once had, but i don't fight as hard as i use to. Although I wish to be like that again, im happy with who i am. My God gives me so many opportunities and blessings that i need to no longer take for granted. Such as life. Life is so precious and can be used to do extraordinary things. but it can be taken from you so very fast. My friends Josh and Trei passed away just a little more than a week ago. It's been a tough time for their family and loved ones. and the fact is their deaths have given me a new perspective that i need to adapt to and apply daily. My days are numbered and i need to take each opportunity each day to make someone smile, or lead them toward God, or something beneficial and not so wordly or vain. Materialistic objects can be nice but people and their connection to yourself is the most valuable thing, i believe, a person can have. Establish strong with relationships with friends and family as often as you have the chance. Value them more than the galaxy's most prized treasures. Wealth, Fame, Power, Status.......these are all things that secular people today strive to achieve. We should all persevere and rise above those things and wish to gain things less expendable and more sincere. Such as a strong relationship with God, moralistic-values, good character, attractive attitudes, pleasing others, helping those in need, offering your own skills to suit others that may require it, and achieving bonds and relationships with loved ones that benefits both parties.

This seems to be like a resolution that i propose often but i need to try my best to stick to it. I need to mature into a good man of God that people respect for my deeds and relationship with God and not someone everyone likes because of my talents and feats. I strongly encourage others to apply a similar philosophies and challenge you to keep them. It would be much easier with someone fighting along my side. but regardless i will try my best.

Dear God, I simply do not give you enough credit for all that you do. But I just wish for you to know that I'm so very grateful for the life you've given me, the blessings you bestow on my family, the healing you are allowing my uncle, and the comfort you have brought to those who hurt.You are an amazing God and I am humbly at your service to do as you require and I know you require all i have to give. But you, Father, are the only one who will ever deserve my faithful service and love. I love you Lord...and Thank you again for allowing me to live under you and your blessings.

On a different note...my guitar playing ability is getting more advanced and my song writing ability is reaching a high. My talents progress with practice and prayers. I wanna do something great with my music one day and I hope you all have a part of that.

For the time being I've grown tired of typing and ache to do something more interesting. But it's been great to catch up and release some of my locked-up emotions. It's been real and it's been fun...but it hasn't been real fun. I'm out until Next Post...Goodnight, my beautiful people. and God Bless! (:

Somewhere in the Between....

I remember when i was once in love. I was more complex, more enlightened, more optimistic, more bubbly, more beautiful, more artistic. My heart grew fonder of all things in nature. I was passionate about life. I was closer to God. I spoke softer only to listen louder. I knew all the right things to say. I made life a malleable tool to suit me. I was wiser than I have ever been before. My vocabulary grew. My spirit was awakened. I became a light that defeated darkness. I felt so powerful. I felt righteous. God filled the entirety of my being. I was infatuated with a young woman who taught me so much. she inspired me. she ignited an intense flame inside of me that consumed everything negative. She was the most beautiful treasure in all the world to me.

That was less than a year ago, but it feels so much longer. I've changed sooo much. Where has the passion, wisdom, and love gone? Why can't i get that back? Why am I not excited about life and all of the brilliant things it has to offer? Where is the Eagerness to show my true colors? Why can't i answer any of those questions?

I had a discussion once with that girl. I told her that some people were just so empty, so lifeless, so dull. They seem as if they have no soul about them. I told her life has no true meaning without passion for something..... Now, I feel as if i'm one of those lifeless beings that only take up space.

I feel like i'm a shadow seeking for my body....on a quest to regain my life.....

I truly miss being in-love and all of the things it made of me. I'd give anything to relive every bit of that. I miss being a part of her life. i miss growing in God together. I miss singing with her. I miss sitting with her in church. I miss the optimism we shared together. I miss everything involving her. Altough it isn't possible...i wish every single night to relive that, to rewind it and do it all over (but better this time), but mostly to be back in the Era of Great feelings when we were together. I miss our relationship that we shared with each other but also with God. I hate what i've become without her.

I'll never get that back and the memories fill me with envy/ Those were the best days of my life and although i've told myself it'll get better because there is much to come.....that was the peak of Tyler James Garrett...but that definitely is no reason to give up....i need to better myself and get stronger with God. many things hold me back but no one will stop me. I WILL love God with all that I am. I WILL devote myself to him. I WILL do all of that because he loves me.

"For I am persuaded that (nothing) shall be able to separate us from the love, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." -Proverbs 8:38-39.

Trail of Broken Hearts...

It's been 3 months and 13 days since my last blog post.....that's such a long time. well it feels that way. Alot has changed since then.....I've lost a few friends and gained some much more significant. I've done more service to the community. I've fallen away from God, but I'm building my close relationship with him again. I've not been myself, but someone who is negative, pessimistic, and jerkish. I'm fixing that! it's a work in progress....

So...I've been so busy lately. I'm getting my eagle scout project in order for completion. i'm working auburn games. Speaking of auburn games.....today they beat Samford but the game was not exciting at all. I had to work many hours today prior to, during, and after the game. i left at 4 A.M. and got back at 8:30 P.M. My feet hurt, my toes are blistered, my face is chapped from the wind, im exhausted, and frustrated. But God has blessed me with memories from that game that i won't soon forget. i love meeting new people. i love smiling at them and they then reply with one of their own. i love smiles....they are so beautiful and happy. they complete me. I have a favorite smile. it belongs to a very bestfriend of mine. She makes me so happy the way she flatters me and builds me up. She can smile at me and i immediately feel 748951274082049875 times better! She's simply amazing and i appreciate, adore, and admire her down to her very core. I have MANYY friends but she is byfar my favorite. She's wonderful, and that's just it!

I've gotta get my Eagle Project finished. i have 41 days until im 18....and no longer elgible for eagle. HAVEEEEE GOT TO GETTT ITTTT!!!!! I'm going to be working on some things for the CAC (child advocacy center - for Cherokee County). They will benefit greatly, i do believe! (:

I love people...they are the 2nd major source for my happiness, behind God. People have the ultimate power to choose for me how my day will be. smiles = happiness, anger= awful day, sadness= sad, generosity=amazing day! Some people are so kind-hearted! i appreciate those people because they have positive attitudes that we could all use!

 I've been really depressed lately....it's selfish but i really want a girlfriend to love and be loved back. i'm tired of this artificial love that i've experienced with most of my last 38 girlfriends...i want something real. i want someone decent. i want someone that'll give me positive feedback and keep me in the light of God. i need not distractions that will lead me astray. I want someone extraordinary. (: but i can live without...because god is all i need. but, mystery girl, it'd be nice to have you in my life. 

God....Is......Amazing! I never give him enough credit. Christ died for us all and for our sins. We could never repay him for all that he has done...but we can ALWAYS give him more credit. I was staring out at nature last weekend when we were camping and i just though..."WOW! God created all this for us all to see,...to live in,...to be a part of. We are all beautiful creations of God and should always remember that.....there's no reason to have a low confidence level when you have knowledge that you are created by God and ALL of HIS creations ARE BEAUTIFUL! God is amazing...and though i've slipped from his light i'm on my way to becoming very close with him...he deserves nothing less and i wanna give him my all...cause alll that i have is his to begin with. I love my savior, and he loves you...share his love and obsorb its beauty...and share it with the world. let us love everyone and stop the hatred that fills this world. We are all beautiful! let's live it!

I'm becoming  a better person, i think, and i wanna be a light unto others to set an example for them...although i doubt i'll ever be good enough...God requires it of me! He loves me and to prove my love for him i WILL do better! it's best for me. and it's what he, you, i and everyone else deserves. i need  to be a positive influence and thats what i'm gonna do!

Well it's been fun but i'm gonna stop here...hopefully i will get another chance soon to update this blog again. Goodnight!

Bulletproof Heart.....

^^^My Chemical Romance song title you say? It holds much more significance than a song.

My heart and I have  been through it all recently.

Through new friendships...through unbearable sickness...through substantial amounts of stress...through newly acquainted love....though recent deaths...though overwhelming exhaustion.......         ....I've seen it all within the last two weeks. Some great, some awful, but all act as beneficial experiences to create a stronger person.

I've had the opportunity of building a bond with a new friend that I never expected. It's not something i needed...(at first)...but something that I've discovered I've been missing for a while now. Finding friends in unexpected places guarantees a positive thing in the end. Building relationships that you've lost is even greater. I tell you...I've been lost without any knowledge of what I needed to find,  but things are working out....based upon bonds that i've built.

Speaking of bonds....my beautiful girlfriend, Ellen Dragsten, has slowly crept deep inside my heart.... and I've found some sort of unknown happiness thatI'm absolutely glad I've found. This summer has given me alot of good things....but she has to be the best of all things this summer has offered. I thank you, Ellen, for picking up those pieces of me that I have left along the road and putting them right back where they belong.I'm blessed to have you...and even more lucky to have you put up with me....you are amazing, my dear.  (:

I've dealt with some awful sicknesses during these last two weeks.....
                       Dear Immune System,
                                                Where are you, friend?
                                           Sincerely, Me.
.......I need to take better care of my health and not focus so much on my outside apperances.....sorry hair....if I offended you.


I tell you...if there is one thing band camp has to offer...it's stress. and times a million. I still haven't learned my music.....and my solo....dear lord, help me. I need some time to chill, but unfortunately that wont happen anytime soon.

And here's the depressing part.......My beloved great-grandmother that meant the absolute world to me....passed away Thursday. I cant really imagine how my life would've went without her...i sure wouldn't be as spoiled as i am now, if not for her....it's gonna be different. I don't really remember the last time I visited her. I'm ashamed of that. I knew how sickly I was and I neglected to visit her often. if i could I'd go back and visit her every single day. i miss her so much already. The funeral is tomorrow and I'm really not sure how everything is gonna go down. Rest in Peace, my beautiful great-grandmother, Helen Garrett. You will forever have a special place in my heart.

All of this that has gone on....has exhausted my body and mind to its entirety. I gotta escape from this soon. i just have to get a vacation from all of this....but if there is one thing that all this has done for me.....it has strengthened my relationship with my God and allowed me to get closer to him. That bond is the most important and one i shall never neglect. I love the lord with all my heart and soul...with all that he has given me and blessed me with...i feel his love through everything. In the end i know he will help me overcome...as he always does....and he'll help me do it....while strengthening myself through it all.  IT feels great to have his love surrounding me. it's the greatest feeling to ever exist. i hope you, dear reader, can also feel his magnificient love...if you can't, talk with me sometime...i'll help you anyway i can. don't miss out on it. (:

It's late...i need sleep. but i never sleep. but then again...i'm never this exhausted. i'm sorry for abandoning my blog. because it's been ages since my last post. but i promise to change that. God loves you, I love you, how about we share that love?

Goodnight. (:

...Like A Day Without The Sun...

it's been 20 days since my last post. And i have to say....I have become such a different person in those short number of days. I'm not the best at being considerate alot of the time. especially recently. I wish to change that. I've been a little wild prior to this week. I'm starting to settle down. and i'm really happy. there are many factors in mylife that have made it so very different but all i'm sure of is that i'm soooo much happier than i've been in a long while. I owe God so much.

This Earth is sooo very beautiful. I got the chance to stare out from ontop of a mountain the other day....it was breath taking to experience god's beauty like that with my new philosophy. life is complicated...but beautiful. thus beauty is very complex. i'll never forget that.

There are alot of things i miss. but alot of things i'll try my best to not look back on because i am too prideful/strong-willed to allow myself to be that kind of person anymore. ignorance is bliss...but you can't always claim ignorance. that doesn't fly most of the time. people know me to well to keep getting by with things that i do.

Why isn't this blog any good? i used to be good at throwing random thoughts around and making everything interesting. i guess i gotta work on that. maybe it's the fact that i'm sooo flippin' tired. yeah, that's it. nighty night......